Sunday, August 30, 2015

God is Always the Center

Life hasn't been very fun here lately.  I've caught myself getting so down and worried.  I know it's the devil, but sometimes it's so very hard to fight negative thoughts.  So today, I took out my new camera that I bought back in March.  When I first got it, I was a little intimidated with all the bells and whistles.  So I packed it all back up until today....

I couldn't believe the photos it took!  My other camera did good, but just look at the difference!  And this is no editing other than lightening the photo.  I always had to do some major editing with my other camera.  The new camera is a Nikon D3200.  It was a stretch for me to purchase since we live on one income.  But we had a little left over with income tax so I went for it with the hubby's encouragement.  From all that I read and studied, this camera is great for beginners.  It came with 5 different lenses...which that's what I was interested in in the first place.  
I'm so excited!

I had a lady contact me a few weeks ago about being on the cover of a Shabby Chic magazine and after communicating back and forth,  I decided to go for it.  I found out it was for Harris Publishing Company and it would be a one time book like you see at Lowes and such.  I was so excited!  I sent in the photos she requested and she replied that the Editor loved them and one had been chosen.  I was then sent a contract.  We were in the middle of dealing with car trouble with our oldest daughter's car.   So when I finally had time to sit down and fill it out, I sent a message asking a few questions.  I was then informed that it had been decided  due to my photos being just a tad off with the pixels after being blown up, that it couldn't be used.  Talk about a bummer! Maybe with the new camera, I'll have another opportunity.... 

So after all of that, we went on an overnight trip for a concert for our daughters.  Mike and I fought the whole time basically, lol.  Neither one of us like to travel and with traffic being crazy and streets being shut didn't make for a great time for either of us.  But the girls has a great time and that is all that mattered.  When we came back, I had a health scare and went to the ER.  Nothing to wince at and stick you head in the sand about.   Tests were done and I was sent home with more tests scheduled to come.

A few days later, it happened again.  I think that's when I really lost it.  I cried myself into oblivion.  Dealing with out youngest daughter and all of her health issues, car trouble, trying to take care of all that goes with daily living and dooless DR's, just about broke me with what was happening with my health.  So back to the ER we went.  More tests were done and large cancer masses were ruled out in my upper abdomen.  I am having bleeding in my lower abdomen  somewhere. I have to wait almost 2 weeks for a colonoscopy.  I don't think I've ever wanted something so bad in my life like a colonoscopy, lol!  I just want answers and a remedy.  I have pain in my abdomen, but thankfully, it's something I can deal with.  But the bleeding is just so scary!

This man is my very best friend in the whole wide world!  If it wasn't for him and my daughters comforting me and giving me hugs, I don't know if I could handle all of this. I know God blessed me with them as my angles.  God knows how much I can handle and that I love Him dearly.  If it is my time, then so be it.  God will always be the center of my very being because without Him, I wouldn't be here today.  He brought me out of a coma and septic shock, He can certainly handle this issue!  So for now, I am going to enjoy my family, my new camera and make new memories of laughter and enjoy life.  And once again, I ask you all for your sweet prayers for me and mine.  Thank you all so very much for being a part of my life and allowing me to share it with you.  May God bless each and everyone of you with health, peace and love!